There is a design, a purpose and a plan. Part of the plan may hold current disbelief or unwillingness to take part. When finally reaching bottom we look up and He is waiting. Just a crack in the armor is all it takes for The Light to enter.
Pray to float in the wave of blessings offered.
Read scripture as Faith comes from hearing and renewal of the mind.
Meditate upon Goodness and watch it blossom.
Warriors of Light bear scars suffered in the darkness. These marks carry no weight or drag. Growing in the Light puts pains and scars to use as fertilizer. They are broken down and no longer recognizable. Visible is only the Joy of His Love and the open hand offered for others.